So...this may be another lengthy-ish Journal... WAAAAA Im sorry! D:
I'll try to keep it short

I just have some things I would like to let you all in on.
Not that anyone reads these anyways OTL

First, Im sorry for the inactivity alittle bit >.> Ive been feeling a bit "Off" Lately. Its not an art block...its more of the "who care anyways" feeling lol. I know everyone gets like that sometimes, hell I have before, but idk, this time feels very different for me. Like, the thought of quitting dA went through my head again. As much as I have ignored it, knowing that im NOT going to ever quit..It keeps nagging me. I guess I've just be feeling down on my art more and more. Its just no good to me. I've been on dA for 6 years now, but I feel like I really have nothing to show for it, other then a gallery full of just junk to me. After taking a few days off from any kind of drawing, I've kinda come to the conclusion, that I need to improve my art alot.
Its too stiff, and there are lots of problems with it. And my backgrounds of course, need to be delt with. Im just not happy with it at all, and figured I needed a change. I mean, I draw every day, even at work koff koff but I dont practice things to improve...I just draw what I know. Im not pushing myself like I should be, So Im going to be doing that for a while. I prolly wont put any sketches and things here unless they come out semi-decent, but they will be posted to my Tumblr, so If you want to follow me there, I would love that [link]
ABOUT COMMISSIONS
I know I've been promising to open commissions for like...4 years now haha, and I know some people are interested, So heres how its going to work for now. Commissions are open, however, Im not going to make an official page with all the details yet. When I move and get settled, then I will open an actual page with prices. If you have something that you wish to commission me for, then please go right ahead and NOTE me about It. I will gladly go over it with you. I can tell you one thing, that things will be pretty cheap at the moment XD

ABOUT POINT COMMISSIONS
I plan to close them. I will still do the Journal Dolls for points, but actual pictures now will be under commissions. I may offer points for pictures in the future, but as of right now, I need ALL the money I can get for moving

ABOUT PALLID
First off, Yes, I will still be making this story, dont worry haha.
But with my art recently, I feel as tho I'm not yet quite ready to start this project. This is something that I plan on publishing, so i need to be proud of it all, and be able to draw it well. So, I wont be drawing It quite yet Im so sad ;__; Im going to take the time, and really work on my art so I can make this my best thing. Don't worry, the art will still flow in, and I'll make some actual character pages.
...and also...I've been contemplating making the story in color..OTZ I dont really WANT too..but when I think about it, making them in B+W isnt any quicker then color. I've gotten really fast with coloring things and painting in my BGs, so I feel as though color would work better. But let me know what you guys would like to see!

I think the reason I feel like its all just useless may have something to do with me moving as well. Its getting closer, and Im kinda getting more nervous. EXCITED!..but nervous. And because atm I dont have a place to work, and all my stuff is still packed away, Its kinda hard for me to get motivated to work. I dont like to draw in the middle of the kitchen, or in public haha. So once I get out there and set up my cave, I will feel 100 times better I know. Its all just bad timing. Also, I have a little more then a month left of my job before I quit. After im done ( June 28th) I will only have about 2 weeks or so before I move, thats when I will REALLY be pushing for commission work and selling things. i REALLY need the money, So art will become my full time job then lol.

Thanks for reading If you did :__;
I know its always alot.. but I really appreciate any kind of support from you guys.
~ Samurai